..:: untimely crash landed ::..

Wednesday, Dec. 17, 2003 @ 3:02 a.m.

~ the (S)aint is feeling ~ ..:: Crashed ::..

~ listening to ~ ..:: Slit My Wrist - Murderdolls ::..

deranged is wat i am now, crashed is like my mind, confused is like everything else in me...

im not feeling good... could be the side effects of insomniac nights and partying... but then again, i think im really getting sick... body's not feeling great these few hours... think im getting flu or something... wished its something more devasting... should i be hospitalized or something... *giggles*

anyways the other part about me not feeling good is mainly bcos i feel disappointed for disappointing toothpick... somehow i felt tat im not up to her expectations of an ideal bf... well this situation could call for two opinions, both optimistic and pessimistic... lets start the optimistic part... i could pick up from where toothpick told me about me being a disappointment and use this to improve myself in better aspects... and the pessimistic side... i can just take the disappointment as it is... and dwell in it for the rest of my fucking miserable life... much of me wanted to stand inside the pessimistic side for i believe tat if im never good for a person im ready to go cos there's no point of holding me if my significant other's gonna hurt along the way... and with no intentions of trying to improve myself... without further ado, i have much consideration to think about... thank you for your kind attention, ladies and gentlemen... hope you enjoyed my untimely entry...

..:: when you want it, goes away too fast
sometimes you hate it, always seemed to last - marilyn manson - speed of pain ::..