..:: the hunger/the anger ::..

Monday, Oct. 27, 2003 @ 12:51 p.m.

~ the (S)aint is feeling ~ ..:: Just Thirsty For The Moment ::..

~ listening to ~ ..:: This Is The New Shit - Marilyn Manson ::..

~ qoute of the day ~ ..:: I woke up today and wished for tomorrow
I don't want to be like anyone else
I woke up today and wished for tomorrow
I don't want even be myself ::..

guess wat... yea its the fasting month already... my mum forced me to eat sahur, the last meal before the fasting starts, and i lazily woke up and had that meal... went back into my room took my apparent last fag for the day and slept...

i dun really see the need to fast, but because i 'have' to... i have to think the positives outta it... one for fact, perhaps it slows down my food intake... i mean i love to eat... the other fact that it will slow down on my expenditures for the month... time to save up and all... definately it feels great to have loads of cash in your pocket aye~?

anyways, i cant really imagine me celebrating hari raya at the end of the fasting month... and the best thing is i have to work on tat day... which will definately take away half of my misery... last time when i was younger... of course i looked forward to celebrating hari raya... its all about the money man... but now... money doesnt really matter at my age... this shitloads... wat pisses me off was the fact of the forgiveness part... i dun understand... i mean especially to direct family members... why cant they seek forgiveness any other day? tats the whole point... and the worst part of hari raya is the fact tat i have to kneel down in front of the real motherfucker and seek repentance and forgiveness... i mean i declared tat i've got nothing for or against him... totally treated him like a sore thumb in the family... well he asked for it and he still haven't made any atempts to make himself better... and though he shall not change, he's got the nerve to ask me to change my life... just to suit his! bloody hypocrite!

this is one of the most memorable phrase that i remembered till this date, "these kinda songs all praise satan! *he's refering to metal music* imagine this... he listens to metallica... the bitter irony... i did tell him right in his face... i listen wat i want and it doesnt bother me... you listen wat you want i wont bother you~~... sucha an asshole...

anyways i recieved a msg from my lead guitarist talking about an upcoming gig at the substation on 23rd dec... asked whether we wanted to perform... i jumped to the offer and hope for the best...